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The Stars Drop Away
03:42
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I will fall across the sky to be submerged in an endless wake of empty space
But this won’t destroy you so long as we follow through ‘till the eclipse
All along i’ll know
You will want it this way
When all the stars drop away we will linger together
When there’s nothing left to take away the hours
We’ll float until nothing really matters
I know I’m wasting all your time as we fall through
A sharp decline seeking to carry us into a new life
Every piece of me you’ve taken
And thrown into the night for the earth to reclaim
Will follow you until you’re withered and decaying from the inside out
So take your life and hang it out to dry
The ties that bind us will unravel into
A brand new tragedy for all to bear witness to
Sometime I think you’ll know why we needed to let go
Of all our stray concern so this could fade away
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Saviour Season
03:00
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Every word i say cuts into my frail ego
I know i’ve been wrong, but maybe not so much as i’m
Lead to believe, shake out this disease
I think I will live through this year
So long as I will catch myself when
I am falling towards the sea
I’ll seek my own return to knowing I’ll find a purpose
And stop pretending that i’m anything greater than this
Hollow empty space circling my dead desires
I’m a natural self-absorbing callous trainwreck
And I know you won’t save me until I fulfill a promise to myself
To reclaim a sense of relief and be okay with where I am
Follow me through until we’re complacent with the silence
I’ll say I’m fine but I know you think I’m speaking too soon
I’ll keep one foot out of the grave
So I won’t fall too far from this
You’d take me to the moon before you admit
We were never meant to go so deep into this reckless falling out
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3. |
Hiding Places
03:13
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I spent the morning shipwrecked just as I always was
Entangled in the perfect blue of my separation
Guilty for not spending my time how i thought i should
But i was too young to see who i would become
Fog lays over my head cold and heavy with the wind
Closer to the edge until this body leaves my soul
I can think myself invisible but i won’t
‘Cause for all I know i’m wanted in this life
Oh, what a loss
I just wanted to be better than i’ve ever been
But I find myself astray along the waters of my
Consciousness before it crumbles in an instant
I’m at the mercy of a rusting machine
Fragmentation until i’m nothing but a fallacy
In the eyes of nobody but my own insecure disease
I can’t live forever, not that I’d want to anyway
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4. |
Patchwork Bastion
03:48
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I will grow cold as my heart gives in
When I can’t see the best in us
Walking under an autumn sunset
As the world leaves us all behind
Tell me why the season burnt us out
Before we could make our own amends
Now I know what it takes to steal the world from under me
And you’ll never wonder how our hope could persist through the end
All I see when I look to the sky is the way the garden never blooms
I will disappear like tears in rain as long as you think of me this way
I am dreaming of the days where I might know
I’m at least half right about myself
Somewhere through the fog i’ll reach out into the twilight
And this will resolve as long as we’re still under the moon
City lights never seemed so distant as the traffic circulates
I’ll give you anything to quell this beast inside us
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Granville
04:19
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I know the light will fade for me again
So i will let it flourish for as long as it can
Every time I tell myself i’ll be okay, well i can’t know but assumptions got me this far anyway
Figures I’ll be alone ‘till the sun passes again
Day in day out I’m drifting further away from everything and everyone that kept me whole
For as long as I can recall
If I could just go back to the frost covered mornings
And nights I stayed up late to watch the sparks fly
I was just as broken then as I am today but at least back then
I had something to work towards
Now every day i wonder if i’ll ever be as happy as i was a year ago
That’s not saying much but the hope i once possessed
Now flickers to the ether everytime i lie awake
At least I know I won’t be alone as long as I can stick around
And we will become starlight
It’s never enough to keep me from thinking that i’d be better off anywhere else
Only held together by what i’ve yet to see for myself
I’ll get through the rest of the summer and wake up where i want to be
Maybe one day the sky will shine as bright as it used to
Someday i’ll know why i stuck around and left my old self behind
So i might be distracted enough to forget this year
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6. |
Station To Station
04:10
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Under the weight of my own constellations again
I’m becoming one with the dark suburban streets passing me by
As I fall through the years
Gravity pulls me back to the same old place where I can’t
Bear myself to you
I just want to feel the way I did
When I could be content within my dreams
I’ll just medicate until I don’t feel the burden of
All these singularities holding me against
My will and crushing every expectation of myself
The air won’t ever change until we break these chains for good
This city never left me
Even when I thought it’d be better off without my constant worry
Station to station I know
Sometime I’ll go out to the woods
Just to sit in solitude with this piece of myself
I only ever wanted to leave behind
Here we are again in the face of obstruction at the hands of everything
I thought I could outrun but I’m nothing more than a simple piece of your colony
Nothing would change if I moved away but maybe my small corner of this earth
Will wait for me again
My derelict maneuvers won’t keep you anymore
I’ll leave you my skeleton key to do with what you want
But you won’t leave anything at all ‘till you find the words to
Turn into your eulogy again, so far from where we left behind
I’m wondering where it all went wrong, why we can’t see the better times
I’d never run away ‘till you left me out in the cold
I’ll wake up in a new skyline and be okay
All the sirens and static will haunt me wherever I go
But someday I know I’ll be able to move on
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7. |
Nocturne Country
04:21
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Hey how have you been
Probably a little better than me
I’ve been living in the creases of the pages you’re writing in
I’d understand if you don’t want to carry on like this
Douse the flame before it takes you whole
Think i’ll spend the night up on the hill looking over the harbour
Waiting for the planets to tell me if i was ever right at all
Someday I think at last I’ll be content
But as long as I’m here I might as well embrace these imperfections
Hey have you seen me around
For a while there I was a goner
I heard you wanted to leave town just to get away from it
Don’t let something like me stop you
Through the woods up to your old house
A year or two from now they’ll tear it down and sell the land
Some time soon the smoke will clear and we’ll go back to how things were
We’ll never be the same but maybe that’s for the best
Hey I think it’s time for me to go
But if the sky falls in on itself I’ll make sure we’re both here
All I want is for you to feel as lovely as you are
The weight of this life will be held up
And we’ll be alright
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For once in my life I want to not be guided by what
My stray synapses tell me i’d be better off doing
The weight of the floor caving in will tear me down again
Maybe I’ll never know what’s to blame
It’d only take 3 more words to drown myself out
Sometime I hope you’ll realize where I’m coming from
We’re a long way from the ditch I thought I’d end up in so
I’m free to want more out of life than I think I deserve
I know the eye of the storm won’t save me anymore
One day I’ll pack everything and leave myself to rot
I’m sure you’ll keep me awake ‘till I figure everything out
And for a moment I’ll shine ‘til everything turns to ash
The zenith of my life will glare unto me
As the prospect of our future conversations passes through
I don’t want to feel anything
Until I can be one with myself
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9. |
Nuke Possum Springs
04:30
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This town will eat you alive if you don’t check out first
The wind will tell you how far to go until you reach
The end of days when we all think we’ve come so far
But we’ll still kill just to keep ourselves around another year
Down in the depths of your mind the world will fall away and
You’ll destroy everything just to make yourself content with
Losing a piece of who you were to the nights that passed you by
And you might leave for a while but things will always be the same
Those nightmare eyes will get you far so long as you don’t trip
And end up somewhere that will never let you go again
Keeping your cool can only ever go so far until
It all comes crashing down again
You want to die anywhere else but these dead end streets
Will always be a part of who you are
Through every autumn day the tides will change beneath your feet
But this place will always be around
All through the woodland air your regrets will come back when
You don’t know who you are and you can’t hold yourself
Together as the world falls and then it’s only you
Hold on to anything as long as you’re still here
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10. |
Solstice
05:28
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When the days are clearer i’ll spend my evenings in the fray
That I’ve made for myself since we don’t reach out anymore
Oh what do I have to lose when you can’t even give me a reason to believe
I will be one with these desperate measures put in place to get us through another day
Someday I won’t regret every moment I spend drifting in and out of reckless abandon with my thoughts
I will give as much as I can so that you’ll know I wouldn’t change a part of this for anything
I’ll spend every sunset looking up places i’d rather be but I can’t keep running away
Waiting for the next train so I can go and pretend
That this rich neighbourhood is where I belong
But you and I both know it wouldn’t be any better
I am a gradient perfectly contrasted with your own
When the waters rise we’ll make our own way out somehow
Often I find myself aboard my own sinking ship
But I know now that I will always find the shoreline
I know you think the solstice will bring us together but I can never be sure
That you’ll be the same person this time next week
Yeah I might be this way forever but at least
I know I have somewhere to turn when my mind is burning up
I’ll be the one to save myself even if it kills me
I’ll find a way to be the reason that i’m still breathing
The sky will gaze down on us through everything
‘Cause we’re not on a sinking ship, we’ll be here long after
The roads may stay the same but we’ll change every day for the better
The past is all behind us now but as long as we’re together
Something greater will come and the sun will rise again
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Kuiper Vancouver, British Columbia
2018-2022, now Dead End Sidewalk
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